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I keep thinking I could get pregnant

over and over again for hours

I guess I ve also been thinking

about blood on the walls

wherever you are

Where are you

I drive around listening to a song

using the world "baby" 500 times

and I think about making a playlist

full of songs with the word "baby"

then i think It will be a really bad idea

because most of the songs will be by usher

or justin bieber

or us sleeping naked

in an abandoned car

I had pre-camp a few days ago

and when it started to hurt

I started smiling and went to the bathroom

but nothing happened

fuck life and condoms

fuck my stomach

fuck that hollow place

where small ghosts live

I mean

just

fuck it